And again he came and found them sleeping, for their eyes were heavy. So, leaving them again, he went away and prayed for the third time, saying the same words again. Then he came to the disciples and said to them, “Sleep and take your rest later on. See, the hour is at hand, and the Son of Man is betrayed into the hands of sinners. Rise, let us be going; see, my betrayer is at hand.”
While he was still speaking, Judas came, one of the twelve, and with him a great crowd with swords and clubs, from the chief priests and the elders of the people. Now the betrayer had given them a sign, saying, “The one I will kiss is the man; seize him.” And he came up to Jesus at once and said, “Greetings, Rabbi!” And he kissed him. Jesus said to him, “Friend, do what you came to do.”
The thought that comes to me as I read this is "With friends like these who needs enemies?" Before the betrayer comes all of Jesus friends sleep - not one can stay awake with him in this hour of need. None of his friends could help him wage spiritual battle in prayer. When crisis comes Jesus stands all alone. And this crisis comes in the form of a kiss. I cannot imagine how the heart of Jesus broke as he saw Judas walking towards him.
Jesus certainly knew and experienced disappointment that day. I cannot imagine the thoughts that went through his mind. In a matter of moments all of his friends would run and forsake him. These who he lived with every day for three years would abandon him. I want to find something redeeming in this moment for God but I cannot. I want to end this meditation on something positive but all I can see is Jesus standing in the garden with a broken heart.
I am so sorry for all of the times that I have broken your heart Lord. Please forgive me.