He committed no sin, neither was deceit found in his mouth. When he was reviled, he did not revile in return; when he suffered, he did not threaten, but continued entrusting himself to him who judges justly. -1Peter 2:22-23 ESV
So interesting how Jesus did not try to control life through sinful actions like deceit, reviling or threatening.
A few days ago I wrote this to a friend whose husband has been on a breathing machine for several months:
"I recently had the thought that I am only trusting God when I am not (trying to be) in control. It reminded me of a time in 2002 when my world was falling apart as Ann lay paralyzed from the waist down in a cruise ship on the Caribbean. I was totally stressed and in the middle of crisis when God began to quietly speak to me about flowing with Him in life and not trying to control my life. I pray that you will find a way to flow with the Spirit in this distressing time."Peter seems to echo this sentiment in these verses. When we are confronted with the crisis of suffering we have the choice of trying to grasp what little control we have or entrust ourselves, and our situations, to God. In doing this, and I can attest it is not easy, we open a door of inner peace in the midst of chaotic storms and crisis.
Once again Dear Lord, I let go of the desire to control. I entrust myself to you.