That answer was so hard for me. It took courage for me to begin to own that stuff in my heart and to admit that I had a pretty good idea of what God, and more importantly I, wanted for my life. For years I had cowered behind silly prayers about "God's will" like that one I offered that day. Does this idea challenge you? Dealing with "heart stuff" is a challenging one. Consider this passage from Proverbs:
The plans of the heart belong to man, But the answer of the tongue is from the LORD. All the ways of a man are clean in his own sight, But the LORD weighs the motives. Commit your works to the LORD And your plans will be established. (Proverbs 16:1-3)Does it surprise you to hear that your heart plans belong to you? Does it challenge you to think that those plans in your heart can be an expression of God's will? So often we can get so wrapped up in our religious "Christian" ideas of "God's will" that we forget the kingdom of God is not so much about what we do but how we do it. The Apostle Paul put it this way:
Therefore do not let what is for you a good thing be spoken of as evil; for the kingdom of God is not eating and drinking, but righteousness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit. For he who in this way serves Christ is acceptable to God and approved by men. (Romans 14:16-18)God's will is so inclusive and is so greater than our religious ideas often lead us to believe. There is truly no delineation between the sacred and the secular. Each of us have a sacred call in, and of, our heart. Connecting with that heart call and desire takes a bit of courage. I pray that we each find the courage to make that connection.