I am not speaking of all of you; I know whom I have chosen. But the Scripture will be fulfilled, 'He who ate my bread has lifted his heel against me.' I am telling you this now, before it takes place, that when it does take place you may believe that I am he. Truly, truly, I say to you, whoever receives the one I send receives me, and whoever receives me receives the one who sent me." After saying these things, Jesus was troubled in his spirit, and testified, "Truly, truly, I say to you, one of you will betray me."
The disciples looked at one another, uncertain of whom he spoke. One of his disciples, whom Jesus loved, was reclining at table close to Jesus, so Simon Peter motioned to him to ask Jesus of whom he was speaking. So that disciple, leaning back against Jesus, said to him, "Lord, who is it?" Jesus answered, "It is he to whom I will give this morsel of bread when I have dipped it." So when he had dipped the morsel, he gave it to Judas, the son of Simon Iscariot. Then after he had taken the morsel, Satan entered into him. Jesus said to him, "What you are going to do, do quickly."
Can you feel the heartbreak of the Son of God as he speaks of betrayal? He begins speaking in generalities of how the scripture will be fulfilled then cannot restrain his sorrow as he reveals that his betrayer is sharing this last supper with him. I wonder how the writer of this passage knew that Jesus was troubled in spirit. I wonder if the Lord wept at the thought of being sold out for thirty pieces of silver. What was it like around that table?
It is so interesting how the one who once cast out a legion of demons could not prevent one of his closest chosen disciples from giving in to this satanic temptation. It speaks to me of how limited God is when it comes to the will of man. Judas was loved by Jesus and had access like only a few had. He saw Christ like very few have ever seen him. Jesus was his friend. It boggles my mind how such a man could give in to betray such a one as Jesus.
Help me to stay true to you Lord. Let your will be mine.